I have a bad case of 'Icouldntcareless'

I have a new ailment and it is  a close relative to 'Apathy' and 'Screwitall', and its called 'Icoudntcareless'. Its symptoms border on fatigue and ennui and require lots of time with your feet up to recover from recent stresses.

Sometimes you get too much thrown at you to deal with and the best treatment is to ignore it all. That' s what I'm doing. The other day I blogged about blocking out life. I am continuing in that mode and taking things a step further.

My schedule for the next few days has lots of things on it but I am not going to do anything I don't have to. I finally caught up on some much needed sleep, I think. But I might need to get another 10 hours tonight (seriously). The knee doctor gave me a fancy new brace and wants me to try PT and then come back in 6-8 weeks. The good thing is I can do PT at my gym instead of going to a separate place with lots more appointments.

The fibromyalgia support group was okay, not great. It has potential but there is one woman in it who wants to be the center of attention and dominates all conversations. The other woman who attended did not speak unless directly addressed. A nice combination. I will try it a few more times and then decide but am leaning against it. I need to get over my current 'Icouldntcareless' before making any decisions.

Maybe I am turning into a cynic or something.

Today my attitude is "I don't care"

I would have started with some extra adjectives in there but didn't think they were appropriate for the title. How has my week gone? Well if you are reading my posts, you can tell it hasn't been the best week. By the time I got to work yesterday afternoon my co-workers said I looked either very tired or "enough already".

But I still had to work for the afternoon and go car shopping. I was exhausted before car shopping and ended up in bed early - maybe I am over this 'spring forward' crap.

What was the medical roller coaster like yesterday? Hmmm well the part about me was that my doctor's office called about my blood counts and one of them is a 'bit' off and they had questions for me. Of course the doctor is on vacation so they will get back to me next week.

This morning I go to the neurologist to learn what the hell is going on with my hands and what is known as 'bilateral tingling' in medical speak. And it could come back with another 'I don't know' and more tests or an express pass to the hand surgeon for carpal tunnel surgery. Whatever the answer is, I am not very comfortable with this as I associate neurologists with needles and nasty tests.

After that I go to work. As a result of the current car issues (anyone want to buy a car?) I am driving my father's baby - which is a brand new electric Prius with only 4000 miles on it. I am petrified something will happen to it and I will be disowned. He has been to sick to drive so it is actually very nice that I can use it for a few days while we figure out the new to us car business.

I hope to get to the gym this afternoon to work off some stress but am not sure if that will happen because we have to go back to the car dealership and see if we can make a decision. Which car, how much to spend or do we move over to another dealer?

I don't care. I have tuna fish on a salad for lunch which I enjoy. That might make me feel better and less stressed. But other wise I really don't care.

I think I'm going for apathy today to avoid undue stress.