Staring out the window, procrastinating

As I sit here looking out the front window with a cat next to me and another two lurking around, I am gathering my thoughts about today. I have to go to the gym. I mean I really have to. I only went once this week so far and am traveling again next week and will miss another couple of days. I took my time getting up this morning because I really needed some sleep so I feel a bit better.

I am procrastinating on my day. I have things I want to do - the gym. I have things I need to do - my medical school (which is fascinating so far) and some volunteer work. I have things I must do - two doctor appointments. These are the cause of my procrastination. I have been in avoidance mode for them. Well actually for one of them because it is a test and if I don't have the test, I don't have to deal with the results which will probably be okay. But because there is that 'what if' thing going on in my brain I have stress.

That is the life in the medical ailment world, mostly the cancer world but with most big ailments. You see a doctor and they send you for a test. They don't like the results of the test so they refer you to another doctor who wants more tests 'to be sure'. Healthy people who haven't had many medical maladies don't usually get this far. They get a 'see you in a year for a follow up'. But because of my ailment history, I never get that I always get the test 'to be sure' and sometimes they are not so good.

So I am procrastinating. But because I am hungry and need to get going to the gym, I will start moving. The question will be if procrastination returns or I allow stress to rule the rest of my day.

Monday morning and I need a nap

Last night I went to bed pretty early to get ready for a Monday where I actually have to go to work. I did wake up around 330 and wasn't sure I would get back to sleep. Then I was informed by my husband that I slept through the alarm and the snooze alarm. I guess I was tired. I need a nap.

But its not to be. I will go to work and then meet a friend for a walk (I hope). I'll go to bed  early tonight to make up for it.

I have been a big fan of four day weekends recently and find I barely make it through a 3 day work /18 hour work week. Today I have to go to work because of my doctor appointments on Wednesday and I have plans for Friday. If I have to change my work schedule, I usually opt for the Friday option instead of the Monday option.

There will be a sales meeting at work today which means the people who work remotely will be in so it will be a bit chaotic. However it does guarantee I can get take out for lunch. Nothing we have at home appeals to me right now.

My husband selected turkey baloney for his lunch choice this week. I think it is slimy and disgusting. His rationale is that he has had turkey just about everything else so what is wrong with baloney? Ick. Its all his, I don't believe I'll be sharing any of that with him.

But I think I am done procrastinating and need to hit the road. After I brush my teeth.See? I can procrastinate with the best of them.