As I said yesterday and many times before, I only blog about what I want. I am picky. Also, my thoughts have changed over the years since my most recent cancer diagnosis in 2007. At first I wouldnt read books or see movies that had the word cancer in them. It was too painful to watch. I kept on finding cancer mixed up in all my normal books - why did someone have to get breast cancer and die and ruin a perfectly good trashy romance novel? Or what is chemotherapy doing on that TV show? I was looking for cancer free zones to enjoy snippets of a reality that had no cancer.
Slowly I got better about this. I watched 'The Bucket List' and while I still have not put together my list, I have put some thought in to it. And if you are wondering, they did a pretty darn good job of portraying chemo and its effects. Then I read a few books that included heroines coping with cancer and their strong, handsome romeos caring for them through their nausea and midnight trips to the ER.
I got a request at the end of last week to write a post about an upcoming documentary that I am now dying to see. Steve was a stand up comedian who's dream was to appear on Letterman. He kept trying and kept getting declined but continued to persevere. Then he got cancer. One of those lovely kinds - where there is no treatment and no cure. Those are the really fun kinds of cancer. They take a lot of pictures of your insides regularly and tell you how much they have grown/shrunk and you don't have to worry about lifetime exposure to radiation from CT Scans. Steve's friends made a documentary of his dream 'Dying to Do Letterman'.
They have won a few awards and are now able to see if they can get into the Academy Awards. And I need to go see it. I want to know how someone with cancer manages to hold on to their dreams and keep pursuing their goals. I want to see the humorous side of cancer diagnosis. I want them to get an Oscar for showing humor in life with cancer. And I want to see how Steve attains his dream - well I assume he does. I don't know. I haven't seen the movie yet and I'm dying to know.
I do know that they have raised the $37,000 they needed and that Steve was diagnosed in 2005 and he is still around now (which shows doctors don't always have such a good grasp on math).
Now I want them to have a showing around here - and I know the perfect theater and can help send a bunch of us cancer people their way. What ever you do, don't tell me the ending! I can put it on my bucket list.