I was mostly on an even keel. I say 'mostly' because who can say they are continually positive all the time. After a quarter century of a cancer focus in my life when went from all encompassing to moving to the back of my brain, things changed.
Nearly nine years ago, that all changed when I was diagnosed with breast cancer. Cancer came front and center in my life. Actually it came roaring back into the front and center of my life. One thing else I did know at the time was that I had already gotten through cancer once before so I could be slightly optimistic that I could do it again. A tiny sliver of positive things.
But for the next six years probably it was still important to me and a topic of frequent blog posts. But then in 2013 when I was diagnosed with rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia, cancer has slipped in importance in my life, but still lingers.... After two cancers, its never going to go away.
Now I have a split focus in my life, sort of evenly divided between:
- breast cancer
- thyroid cancer
- rheumatoid arthritis
- all the related side effects from all the related treatments
I think anyone when they are diagnosed with cancer, it takes over their life, until something changes in their life and they get distracted. So maybe I have been a bit distracted from the giant cancer focus in my life. But it will never go away. But it is allowing me a bit more of sanity. Who doesn't need sanity?