Sunday, May 4, 2014

The Weighty Question

Here I am feeling old and fat. I am fat. I know it. I wore a dress when we went out to dinner the other night and it made me look pregnant. I am too fat. I know I have to lose weight and believe me I am trying.

Here are the problems I have with losing weight:
  1. My newest medication, Lyrica, added 10 more pounds
  2. My hormonal breast cancer medication was good for another 10 pounds
  3. I can only exercise three days a week or am in pain and uncomfortable for a couple days
  4. I like food, I like to cook, and I like to eat
  5. I am an emotional eater and eat when stressed 
  6. And, last but not least, I work in an office which has a candy basket that is usually full, a snack tray full of tasty and fattening foods, and people bring in goodies a couple times a week. The last two are in full view of my desk and so going back to # 5 on a bad day at work, I am doomed.
I have been working on losing weight. But it is much harder to lose these days.  Having the stomach flu where I didn't have any appetite (or go to work) for 9 days, helped me start. I am down a few pounds that seem to be staying off but want to keep them off and take off more.

I can't live on lettuce. I do like salads and healthy food like Greek yogurt, home made granola, bananas, and other healthy foods. My husband is intent on losing weight as well. Tonight's dinner will be fish with vegetables and maybe some quinoa. Tomorrow night we will probably have fish again. That will be a good start.

I know losing weight will help with fibromyalgia, back pain, RA, and reduce cancer recurrence risk so there is lots of incentive, never mind the emotional side of not wanting to go up another clothes size, again.

The weighty question is it possible for me to lose weight by changing eating habits and food choices for the two of us long term? I certainly hope so. I have blogged about this several times over the years and the scale seems to keep going in the wrong direction. Maybe its time to throw out the scale.


Jim's Girl said...

I could have written this myself! Dress shopping yesterday was awful. The only thing that fit was XXL. There is no way to hide this belly. I gave up sweets for Lent and didn't lose a pound. Very frustrating.

I felt quite low until I started trying dresses on (from my own closet) with my daughter. She thought I looked terrific in everything! Bless her heart.

Kate, of Kate Has Cancer

Anonymous said...

hi caroline.....i love your posts.....and this one hit home for me.....after chemo; artificial menopause; 2 different cancers; and 3 liver resections in 4 years, i am quite chubby ! i have been doing interval training at the gym...and really love it...i can go as hard or as easy as i need to.....i have lost about 5 pounds in 2 months...a small victory but a nice feeling .....maybe it would interest you ? take care nicola

Nancy's Point said...

Well, I relate too! Dear hubby and I finally joined a health club and I have been working out diligently for nearly three months. I do try to eat "smart", okay, "smarter". My scale has gone down like three pounds. That's it. Three measly pounds! Sometimes I get so frustrated. I know the weight sticks like glue partly because of Aromasin (an AI), but still... Anyway, in this you are not alone either. Not sure that helps, but it can't hurt...

Caroline said...

I am so glad to hear these comments - I hate being fat!

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