Today I was at an event where I might have fallen a tiny bit. I must say I am not completely unfamiliar with the room because I was in that same room in 1989 or so at a friend's wedding. So I must have memorized the entire room layout then (although I know alcohol was involved at the wedding).But things might have gotten a little hazy since.
But my question is who carpets an entire room with the same carpet on everything except the dance floor? By the carpets rest of the room I mean stairs that go across the full length of the room and the DJ/band riser at the end of the space. In a dark blue carpet which shows no contours in any light. With no reflective tape or anything.
So I walked across the room, missing the riser. Then I walked back across the room to return and discovered the riser for the third time today. I might have caught a little air in this event. I did not do major damage to my body. I did land on my right knee and right thumb. I have a tiny scrape on my knee.
When I did take this tiny tumble, a couple of people asked me if I was okay. I said I needed a minute and tried not to cry in front of a crowd of strangers. But then I sat there. Then I finally stood up. And was really about to cry (stiff upper lip be damned).
But I made it home. I got in bed with a heating pad for my back and an ice pack for my knee. Three hours of bad TV later, I am feeling better and my husband is about to serve a nice home made dinner.
But I am still a klutz and will pay for this tomorrow.
PS by posting about stupid stuff, I can avoid some of the other issues in my life for a while
Saturday, September 30, 2017
Thursday, September 28, 2017
My Cholesterol Improved
I have no idea what I did but my cholesterol is much better than it was a year ago. I don't know what I have done differently with my diet (I thought I had adopted a whole bunch of bad eating habits) but my total cholesterol dropped more than 50 points in the last year. Maybe I need a burger and fries for lunch today...
That was the good news. The bad news is I have referrals to three different types of doctors - ENT, eyes, and a pharmacotherapist.
The pharmacotherapist is going to review all the meds I am on. I like that idea. I have so many medications from so many doctors. My PCP is concerned about too many interact and why I am on them and how can we get rid of some. Finally someone is taking a look. One big part of the problem is my previous pain management doctor would just increase my meds without explaining or change to a new med with no explanation. Now my new pain management guy is actually talking about reducing some meds and has changed some already.
My PCP told me that a lot of my weird numbers like heart rate and others can be screwed up by all my medications. She sent me for a pile of bloodwork and an EKG since my last one wasn't so great.
So I thought it went well. I even lost 5 lbs. But I forgot to ask her one key question. Damn. I'll send her a message later.
So after cancer, I like this kind of doctor appointment. She looked at my big picture and can't find any reason I might drop dead tomorrow.
That was the good news. The bad news is I have referrals to three different types of doctors - ENT, eyes, and a pharmacotherapist.
The pharmacotherapist is going to review all the meds I am on. I like that idea. I have so many medications from so many doctors. My PCP is concerned about too many interact and why I am on them and how can we get rid of some. Finally someone is taking a look. One big part of the problem is my previous pain management doctor would just increase my meds without explaining or change to a new med with no explanation. Now my new pain management guy is actually talking about reducing some meds and has changed some already.
My PCP told me that a lot of my weird numbers like heart rate and others can be screwed up by all my medications. She sent me for a pile of bloodwork and an EKG since my last one wasn't so great.
So I thought it went well. I even lost 5 lbs. But I forgot to ask her one key question. Damn. I'll send her a message later.
So after cancer, I like this kind of doctor appointment. She looked at my big picture and can't find any reason I might drop dead tomorrow.
Wednesday, September 27, 2017
Off To My Primary Care
This morning I go off to my primary care for my annual physical. Although there are lingering thoughts of 'what if she finds something bad', I will squish them down for the duration.
However after cancer, even though you have all sorts of oncologists and other fun doctors, your primary care is the one who is supposed to oversee your care. Hence, I have a paltry list of 15 questions for her. And I assume I will be sent for blood work after and maybe other tests. I expect I will be there for a few hours.
I am looking forward to talking to her about multiple issues that do not fall under the care of any of my bazillion specialists. And there are a few. If someone (besides me) can pull all my medical crap together and make sense of it, I will be happy.
After I will go to the gym to work off any residual stress.
However after cancer, even though you have all sorts of oncologists and other fun doctors, your primary care is the one who is supposed to oversee your care. Hence, I have a paltry list of 15 questions for her. And I assume I will be sent for blood work after and maybe other tests. I expect I will be there for a few hours.
I am looking forward to talking to her about multiple issues that do not fall under the care of any of my bazillion specialists. And there are a few. If someone (besides me) can pull all my medical crap together and make sense of it, I will be happy.
After I will go to the gym to work off any residual stress.
Tuesday, September 26, 2017
Sense of Humor
How is your sense of humor on a normal day? This is a serious question. Do you keep your sense of humor? Do you have a sense of humor? If you don't have a sense of humor, I think it would negatively impact your health issues.
Yes I have no training on any kind of medical or psychological information. But I do think a healthy sense of humor is very important as a coping mechanism. If you can crack jokes, you probably are not on death's door.... right now.
Personally, I think sense of humor should be checked, just like any other vital sign, at doctor appointments.
Yes I have no training on any kind of medical or psychological information. But I do think a healthy sense of humor is very important as a coping mechanism. If you can crack jokes, you probably are not on death's door.... right now.
Personally, I think sense of humor should be checked, just like any other vital sign, at doctor appointments.
Monday, September 25, 2017
Aggravated, Frustrated, And More
Yesterday I had lunch with two friends who I have known for a very long time. One since the 1970s and the other since the 1980s. While I have sensed over the years they do not understand what I am going through. Yesterday revealed the truth. They do not have a clue. I was so aggravated when I left lunch and I woke up aggravated about it this morning. They were insensitive, self centered, and ignorant of my limitations.
I made a lunch reservation and had hoped to be there first so I could get a table with chairs and not a padded bench, which can sometimes be difficult for my back. As my friend, A, was already seated, I decided I wasn't going to make a big deal out of it as the bench seemed okay at first.
We chit chatted a few minutes waiting for B to show up. She was late. She is always late. She is incapable of getting anywhere on time. I find this very frustrating because I am limited to how long I can be out with my health issues. She doesn't get it.
When B showed up, she told us why she was late: she did text us as she was about to leave but then she had to put everything in her car. Then she realized she forgot her phone so she went back. Finally she realized that she forgot her laptop and, as she was going to work after lunch, she would have to go back and get it. And every statement she makes she knocks her hands on the table so it makes it shake which hurts my back. I just sit with my hands off the table. She always bangs around.
Lunch was very good. We took our time so we could chat and catch up. We split a dessert and kept yakking away, with the table being pounded on by both. I think they do it without realizing it.
A few statements were made by them: 'She (a relative of a friend) must be very sick because she takes 20 prescriptions'. (I have that many, or more). 'Why doesn't your back get better?' (For how many decades do we need to talk about this?)
Eventually, after almost 2 hours, I said something about my back hurting. B said 'I thought we were going to have a nice long lunch'. How long is a long lunch - 5 hours? Then A pulled out a set of probably 50 pictures to show us, in great detail, one by one, with descriptions.
Finally I just said I have to go because my back is killing me. I made a point of standing up. But then we had to stop so the hostess could take a group picture of us..... Arghhhh. I just needed to get in my car and its supportive, contoured car seat, with no more vibration from the table.
What upsets me the most is that they just do not understand. They claim to be some of my oldest friends but have no idea of what I deal with day to day. I do not expect my friends to keep up with every detail of my health. I just want them to have a general understanding of my health and that I have many limitations. And that I am not getting better anytime soon.
What this means in the end, I will not spend as much time with them in the future. If they can't realize that I have limitations and am not very helpful. I don't think they are my friends any more.
I made a lunch reservation and had hoped to be there first so I could get a table with chairs and not a padded bench, which can sometimes be difficult for my back. As my friend, A, was already seated, I decided I wasn't going to make a big deal out of it as the bench seemed okay at first.
We chit chatted a few minutes waiting for B to show up. She was late. She is always late. She is incapable of getting anywhere on time. I find this very frustrating because I am limited to how long I can be out with my health issues. She doesn't get it.
When B showed up, she told us why she was late: she did text us as she was about to leave but then she had to put everything in her car. Then she realized she forgot her phone so she went back. Finally she realized that she forgot her laptop and, as she was going to work after lunch, she would have to go back and get it. And every statement she makes she knocks her hands on the table so it makes it shake which hurts my back. I just sit with my hands off the table. She always bangs around.
Lunch was very good. We took our time so we could chat and catch up. We split a dessert and kept yakking away, with the table being pounded on by both. I think they do it without realizing it.
A few statements were made by them: 'She (a relative of a friend) must be very sick because she takes 20 prescriptions'. (I have that many, or more). 'Why doesn't your back get better?' (For how many decades do we need to talk about this?)
Eventually, after almost 2 hours, I said something about my back hurting. B said 'I thought we were going to have a nice long lunch'. How long is a long lunch - 5 hours? Then A pulled out a set of probably 50 pictures to show us, in great detail, one by one, with descriptions.
Finally I just said I have to go because my back is killing me. I made a point of standing up. But then we had to stop so the hostess could take a group picture of us..... Arghhhh. I just needed to get in my car and its supportive, contoured car seat, with no more vibration from the table.
What upsets me the most is that they just do not understand. They claim to be some of my oldest friends but have no idea of what I deal with day to day. I do not expect my friends to keep up with every detail of my health. I just want them to have a general understanding of my health and that I have many limitations. And that I am not getting better anytime soon.
What this means in the end, I will not spend as much time with them in the future. If they can't realize that I have limitations and am not very helpful. I don't think they are my friends any more.
Saturday, September 23, 2017
Clearing Your Plate For Better Balance
With a slew of health ailments comes lots of responsibility. I need to take responsibility for taking my medications, getting to my doctor appointments, getting to the gym to keep a minimal bit of fitness, as well as basic household stuff (laundry, groceries, garden, etc) as much as I am able. I also need to take care of my emotional self.
Therefore I need to clear my plate of crap and balance myself better. There are some things which should just be taken right off my plate. These include:
Therefore I need to clear my plate of crap and balance myself better. There are some things which should just be taken right off my plate. These include:
- Anyone else's problem. Sorry. I don't have time for them. I'll talk to you about them. Commiserate with you about them. But I will not stress or worry for you. Sorry.
- Anything that is beyond my control. Idiots in Washington, or any other politician anywhere in the world. The weather. Climate change. Hurricanes or blizzards.
- Anyone who is trying to make me feel bad. If you don't like how I look, what I am wearing, what I am knitting or reading, etc. Sorry. That's your problem. Not mine. As a result you will find you see me a lot less because I don't have time for your attitude.
All of the above has just be pushed off the edge waiting for the waiter with the crumb scraper to clean them up and throw them away.
As a result of doing this I may appear unsympathetic to some but I am trying to preserve any remnants of my sanity.
If you find yourself overstressed, try clearing your plate of anything you can. You can't take on the burdens of your friends and family members. You can be concerned but you need to focus on yourself. Start getting rid of the things similar to what I took off my plate and see if you can achieve better balance.
Friday, September 22, 2017
I Travel In Elite Circles
Well I don't travel actually. But Lady Gaga of all people and I have something in common.We both have fibromyalgia.
Her fibro is bad enough that she has cancelled the European leg of her latest tour. Because of pain and fatigue.Why do those terms sound so familiar to me?
Think of it this way, if a famous personality who makes money by going on tour to sell more albums (or copies of songs downloaded - or however they count that these days) has to cancel, she must be in a lot of pain.
I can relate. (I wish I had a European tour to cancel - as long as I went to a lot of beaches and my husband was there, and someone else carried all the luggage) . I am happy these days with making it through going to the gym and the grocery store before I collapse.
I hope she feels better and gets some good pain management to help.
Her fibro is bad enough that she has cancelled the European leg of her latest tour. Because of pain and fatigue.Why do those terms sound so familiar to me?
Think of it this way, if a famous personality who makes money by going on tour to sell more albums (or copies of songs downloaded - or however they count that these days) has to cancel, she must be in a lot of pain.
I can relate. (I wish I had a European tour to cancel - as long as I went to a lot of beaches and my husband was there, and someone else carried all the luggage) . I am happy these days with making it through going to the gym and the grocery store before I collapse.
I hope she feels better and gets some good pain management to help.
Thursday, September 21, 2017
Complications After Cancer Linger
My least favorite phrase is 'with your medical history we need to be sure'. I have been hearing it since my first cancer diagnosis. Even though my two cancers, thyroid and breast, are not what are considered the most horrible kinds, they both could recur and kill me anytime they want.
What it has meant over the year is that I have always been sent for more tests than anyone else. I need more blood tests and scans than anyone else. Now as I have developed more ailment such as RA, its harder to treat. One of the costs of my cancer treatment is osteopenia - in a family full of women with osteoporosis, all of a sudden I am much higher risk for it. And the list goes on.
All this makes me cranky and causes many more doctor appointments. My appointment on Tuesday was number 51 for the year. How many of them were for ailments or for side effects or post treatment ailments? I do not want to count. I just hate going to doctors at this point.
After cancer, your life isn't the same. You are going to have more complication related follow ups because of it. You do not get to walk away from cancer. It follows you everywhere, forever.
What it has meant over the year is that I have always been sent for more tests than anyone else. I need more blood tests and scans than anyone else. Now as I have developed more ailment such as RA, its harder to treat. One of the costs of my cancer treatment is osteopenia - in a family full of women with osteoporosis, all of a sudden I am much higher risk for it. And the list goes on.
All this makes me cranky and causes many more doctor appointments. My appointment on Tuesday was number 51 for the year. How many of them were for ailments or for side effects or post treatment ailments? I do not want to count. I just hate going to doctors at this point.
After cancer, your life isn't the same. You are going to have more complication related follow ups because of it. You do not get to walk away from cancer. It follows you everywhere, forever.
Wednesday, September 20, 2017
Well, Crapola!
A few weeks ago, I posted about what my pain medication may hide, yesterday I found the truth. Call me slow about some things but I had to do some thinking.
I have RA, fibromyalgia, bad back, etc - all sorts of nice things that cause pain. So I get the good drugs. I have this awesome pain patch that masks 99% of it. It wasn't until I was an idiot a few weeks ago and forgot to change my pain patch I had no idea how much pain.
The thinking process I had to go through was what was all that pain from and why is it important? I know several people that have RA as well, my mother and an old friend. Both of them are on injected biologics for their RA and nothing else. My mother has other issues and has pain meds. My friend does not have pain meds. Her RA is only treated with a biologic.
More thinking. Then I thought, was my treatment of methotrexate and leflunomide supposed to be taking care of all my RA issues and stopping progression? I didn't really know. In recent visits with my rheumatologist she had been concerned why my knuckles were sore (which they shouldn't be because of my treatment) and she had tweaked my treatment a few times.
Finally, on Friday I decided this has gone on long enough. I sent a message to my rheumatologist (who doesn't work on Fridays) and her nurse called me back. She asked me a bunch of questions. I asked her one question - is my treatment supposed to be controlling all my RA so that I don't have significant pain? Her answer was yes. So I knew, my pain meds were hiding much more aggressive RA than previously thought.
Monday, I got a call on when I could come in to see the doctor or one of her PAs as soon as possible. I actually got into see her yesterday. She needs to go to the next level in treatment and talk to my oncologist because of my cancer history. Some biologics have a TNF factor hidden inside (the T stands for Tumor) and she doesn't want to give me a recurrence (which happened to one of her patients a few years back).
But wait:
First, in the interim she wants me to try prednisone again to reduce inflammation. Start really slowly so I do not react again and if I do react I need to call her.
Second, she needs to talk to my oncologist about her thoughts on my medical history and RA treatment.
Third, she isn't going to change anything until my knee is completely healed after my October 5 arthroscopy. So this will be mid to late November before this change happens.
What all this means is now I am no longer in the mild to moderate RA club, but in the moderate to severe RA club. Another club I don't want to belong to.
I have RA, fibromyalgia, bad back, etc - all sorts of nice things that cause pain. So I get the good drugs. I have this awesome pain patch that masks 99% of it. It wasn't until I was an idiot a few weeks ago and forgot to change my pain patch I had no idea how much pain.
The thinking process I had to go through was what was all that pain from and why is it important? I know several people that have RA as well, my mother and an old friend. Both of them are on injected biologics for their RA and nothing else. My mother has other issues and has pain meds. My friend does not have pain meds. Her RA is only treated with a biologic.
More thinking. Then I thought, was my treatment of methotrexate and leflunomide supposed to be taking care of all my RA issues and stopping progression? I didn't really know. In recent visits with my rheumatologist she had been concerned why my knuckles were sore (which they shouldn't be because of my treatment) and she had tweaked my treatment a few times.
Finally, on Friday I decided this has gone on long enough. I sent a message to my rheumatologist (who doesn't work on Fridays) and her nurse called me back. She asked me a bunch of questions. I asked her one question - is my treatment supposed to be controlling all my RA so that I don't have significant pain? Her answer was yes. So I knew, my pain meds were hiding much more aggressive RA than previously thought.
Monday, I got a call on when I could come in to see the doctor or one of her PAs as soon as possible. I actually got into see her yesterday. She needs to go to the next level in treatment and talk to my oncologist because of my cancer history. Some biologics have a TNF factor hidden inside (the T stands for Tumor) and she doesn't want to give me a recurrence (which happened to one of her patients a few years back).
But wait:
First, in the interim she wants me to try prednisone again to reduce inflammation. Start really slowly so I do not react again and if I do react I need to call her.
Second, she needs to talk to my oncologist about her thoughts on my medical history and RA treatment.
Third, she isn't going to change anything until my knee is completely healed after my October 5 arthroscopy. So this will be mid to late November before this change happens.
What all this means is now I am no longer in the mild to moderate RA club, but in the moderate to severe RA club. Another club I don't want to belong to.
Monday, September 18, 2017
Being Breast Cancer Savvy
Buried in another article based on a woman doctor's problems getting screened for breast cancer by the UK's NHS, are three rules on how to be 'Breast Cancer Savvy'
- You Don't Need to Examine Your Breasts
All women, no matter what age, should get to know their breasts. But experts have stopped recommending self-examination routines. Studies have shown that most women who find breast tumours do so during the course of everyday life: while dressing, or just rolling over in bed. The key is to know what looks and feels normal to you.
- Don't Ignore Symptoms
The most common sign of breast cancer is a lump within the breast. But you might find one in the armpit or notice skin changes on the breast such as dimpling, and changes in the appearance of the nipple, or its shape or how it feels, or a discharge. Breast pain on one side that lasts after a period, a rash and any change in the size, shape or symmetry should be investigated.
- Make Sure You Go To That MammogramIf breast cancer is detected early, it is more treatable. Screening uses mammograms – a type of X-ray – to look inside the breast. All women between 47 and 70 are invited for screening every three years. NHS screening is opt-in after 70, so make sure you get in touch with your local unit to make an appointment: nhs.uk/breastscreening.
I think I will be forced to blog about the rest of the article tomorrow maybe. 47 is way too late to start mammograms. My maternal aunt was diagnosed at 76 with breast cancer.... Grrr.
But in the meantime. Be savvy. Savvy is almost like being cool.
Sunday, September 17, 2017
Beeswax and Helping
If you want to be a good friend during a medical crisis, ask how you can help. Don't say, 'how can I help?' Ask 'Do you need anything from the grocery store? I'm going later today.' Mow their lawn. Pick up their kids from school. All those things. Anything you can do.
However, its 'none of your beeswax' on what exactly their health issues are so:
But go mow their lawn.....
However, its 'none of your beeswax' on what exactly their health issues are so:
- Do not interrogate them daily on what's the latest from their doctor
- Do not tell the world every little detail you interrogated out of them. Its not your story to tell.
- Do not tell them your cousin's hairdresser's uncle's neighbor's son had the same thing and their treatment was what your friend has and they died in the end. Or conversely, their treatment was different and must be better because they lived another two years.
But go mow their lawn.....
Saturday, September 16, 2017
Your Decision, Not Your Doctor's
In years gone by, doctors were regarded as gods. They knew all, were not to be questioned and patients should obey unquestioningly. Those days are gone. Patients are empowered. They learn about their conditions, they question their doctors, and they make their own decisions. They may rely on their doctor's advice but clearly make their decisions.
However, a recent study (because we always need more damn studies) found that doctor preferences for surgery type greatly influenced patient choice in early stage breast cancer surgery.
"Researchers surveyed more than 3,300 women with early stage breast cancer and 349 surgeons who treated them. About 16 percent of the patients had both breasts removed.
Only 4 percent of those whose surgeons heavily favored breast-saving surgery and were most reluctant to remove both breasts had the procedure. That compared to 34 percent of patients whose surgeons were most willing to do the surgery, the study found.
"That difference is huge. Even for a procedure that is very patient-driven, we see that surgeons account for a lot of the variability in the community and those surgeon attitudes really matter in terms of whether a patient does or does not get CPM," said study senior author and professor of medicine Dr. Steven Katz in a University of Michigan news release."
If the reasons given for a bilateral mastectomy are given as "patient peace of mind, avoiding conflict and improved cosmetic outcome", then why are the results so skewed to the surgeon's preferences?
Again, its your body and your decision and not your doctor's
However, a recent study (because we always need more damn studies) found that doctor preferences for surgery type greatly influenced patient choice in early stage breast cancer surgery.
"Researchers surveyed more than 3,300 women with early stage breast cancer and 349 surgeons who treated them. About 16 percent of the patients had both breasts removed.
Only 4 percent of those whose surgeons heavily favored breast-saving surgery and were most reluctant to remove both breasts had the procedure. That compared to 34 percent of patients whose surgeons were most willing to do the surgery, the study found.
"That difference is huge. Even for a procedure that is very patient-driven, we see that surgeons account for a lot of the variability in the community and those surgeon attitudes really matter in terms of whether a patient does or does not get CPM," said study senior author and professor of medicine Dr. Steven Katz in a University of Michigan news release."
If the reasons given for a bilateral mastectomy are given as "patient peace of mind, avoiding conflict and improved cosmetic outcome", then why are the results so skewed to the surgeon's preferences?
Again, its your body and your decision and not your doctor's
Friday, September 15, 2017
What Does That Symptom Mean?
Right now I am contemplating the additional pain I have been having in my fingers/hands and toes/feet recently. I do not expect I have hand/foot cancer but that my rheumatoid is doing funny things. I am not researching online, I am going to send my doctor a message. That is the mature adult thing to do.
Normal people think that headache or scratchy throat is nothing. But to cancer people a headache is a brain tumor and a sore throat is esophageal cancer. Along with your cancer diagnosis you learn that Dr Google and Wikipedia are not your friends for medical information.
But with cancer, every little symptom gets a new meaning. And the emotional stress can be amazing. Which is why its time to stop googling symptoms. Ask your doctor instead.
Thursday, September 14, 2017
Narrow Mindedness
I realize that a lot of academia, where medical research often happens, primarily uses Apple computers - desktops, iPads, and iPhones. However just because they use iPhones doesn't mean anyone else does. Hence the problem.
I received an email recruiting women for a study by the Army of Women on the Relationships among Cognitive Function, Lifestyle, and Exercise after Cancer Treatment (ReFLECT+). I said great. Let me see if I can sign up. I greatly appreciate what the Army of Women does and support them wholly. But I can't believe the narrow mindedness as part of their study.
As they recruit for non-white participants, they gave themselves a big obstacle. Look at who can participate:
You can join the Relationships among Cognitive Function, Lifestyle, and Exercise after Cancer Treatment (ReFLECT+) study if you match ALL of these MAIN categories:
I received an email recruiting women for a study by the Army of Women on the Relationships among Cognitive Function, Lifestyle, and Exercise after Cancer Treatment (ReFLECT+). I said great. Let me see if I can sign up. I greatly appreciate what the Army of Women does and support them wholly. But I can't believe the narrow mindedness as part of their study.
As they recruit for non-white participants, they gave themselves a big obstacle. Look at who can participate:
You can join the Relationships among Cognitive Function, Lifestyle, and Exercise after Cancer Treatment (ReFLECT+) study if you match ALL of these MAIN categories:
- You are a woman age 21 or older
- You have been diagnosed with breast cancer at any time in your life. Women who have not undergone treatment, are currently undergoing treatment, or who have completed treatment are eligible to participate in this study.
- You have access to an iPhone
- You live in the United States
- You self-identify as a racial/ethnic minority such as but not limited to African American, Hispanic/Latina, Asian, American Indian, Alaska Native, Native Hawaiian, Pacific Islander, or more than one race
You have to have an iPhone. I googled this and iPhone usage is around 15% of the country. "However, its market share fell from 14.8% in the first quarter of 2016 to 13.7% last quarter."
So they just limited their research pool to less than 15% of the population. And they wonder why they can't find enough patients to participate.
And we wonder why medical research costs so much....
Wednesday, September 13, 2017
Surviving Life With Ailments
What is the best way to survive ailments? First of all, one step at a time. And take as many breaks as possible to have fun.
That is what I did today. I may have my feet up recovering but I had fun, with my husband.
Today we went to a museum and out for lunch looking at the ocean. My feet are really tired. My knees hurt. My hips are speaking up too.
But by spending a few hours out doing something outside our normal activities it was a nice break. I didn't have to think about any of my medical ailments (until my feet started to hurt) or upcoming medical misadventures - which includes knee arthroscopy in a couple of weeks.
It is easy to get in a rut of medical issue followed by medical issue followed by medical issue. It is impossible to keep going in the medical rut day after day. You cannot do it without leaving your sanity in the hospital hallway.
So take my advice and go do something special. Get out of your rut and have fun.
That is what I did today. I may have my feet up recovering but I had fun, with my husband.
Today we went to a museum and out for lunch looking at the ocean. My feet are really tired. My knees hurt. My hips are speaking up too.
But by spending a few hours out doing something outside our normal activities it was a nice break. I didn't have to think about any of my medical ailments (until my feet started to hurt) or upcoming medical misadventures - which includes knee arthroscopy in a couple of weeks.
It is easy to get in a rut of medical issue followed by medical issue followed by medical issue. It is impossible to keep going in the medical rut day after day. You cannot do it without leaving your sanity in the hospital hallway.
So take my advice and go do something special. Get out of your rut and have fun.
Tuesday, September 12, 2017
How Much Do Cancer Drugs Cost?
The line from the pharmaceutical manufacturers have always been that it costs billions to develop new drugs. And they have to recoup their costs for the drugs that don't make it. This is why we have cancer treatments that cost well over $100,000 each year.
But now the truth is out.
Tufts Center for the Study of Drug Development conducted a study on development costs of cancer drugs.What they found is a much lower total for development of a cancer drug.
"A new analysis finds the magic number is $648 million, which is substantially less than an earlier albeit controversial estimate of $2.6 billion for the cost to develop any and all new medicines, in general.
As with that earlier estimate by the Tufts Center for the Study of Drug Development, though, this latest analysis is already engendering criticism, a reflection of an ongoing debate over true development costs and how these should be calculated. This is important because the pharmaceutical industry has often used R&D costs to justify its pricing."
“These results suggest that pharmaceutical drug development is extremely lucrative and the current drug prices are not necessarily justified by the R&D spending on these drugs,’’ the researchers who conducted the new analysis — Dr. Vinay Prasad of Oregon Health and Science University and Dr. Sham Mailankody of Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center — wrote in JAMA Internal Medicine.
To arrive at their $648 million estimate, the researchers chose 10 publicly traded drug makers with only one cancer medicine that, at the time of regulatory approval, had no other treatments on the market. They reviewed eligible candidates during a 10-year period beginning in January 2006, some of which were developed internally and others that were acquired.
They calculated total R&D spending from the first R&D work to the year of approval and also accounted for failures — the cost of drugs that never made it to market. In addition, the researchers assigned 7 percent opportunity costs, which is the return that investors could be expected to forgo if the money had been invested elsewhere while a drug is being developed. This raised median costs to $757 million.
“The total revenues from the sales of these 10 drugs after approval were $67 billion, more than 7-fold higher than the total R&D spending,’’ Prasad wrote in an e-mail. “The median time on the market for these drugs was four years. Since the median duration of market exclusivity for oncologic drugs is about 14 years, these drugs will earn billions more. Nine out of 10 companies had higher revenues than R&D spending and four companies had more than 10-fold higher revenues than spending.’’ He also maintained that the cost to develop cancer medicines is unrelated to the novelty of the mechanism of action or the efficacy of the drugs. "
Of course there are dissenters to this study's results as always. Personally I believe any study will have its dissenters. It is not that difficult to find something to disagree with on any topic.
But I digress. Although this number may seem astonishingly low compared to the previously cited $2.6 billion, I still think that the truth is much closer to this latest number of $648 million than to $2.6 billion. This latest study, while under scrutiny is probably a new
But now the truth is out.
Tufts Center for the Study of Drug Development conducted a study on development costs of cancer drugs.What they found is a much lower total for development of a cancer drug.
"A new analysis finds the magic number is $648 million, which is substantially less than an earlier albeit controversial estimate of $2.6 billion for the cost to develop any and all new medicines, in general.
As with that earlier estimate by the Tufts Center for the Study of Drug Development, though, this latest analysis is already engendering criticism, a reflection of an ongoing debate over true development costs and how these should be calculated. This is important because the pharmaceutical industry has often used R&D costs to justify its pricing."
“These results suggest that pharmaceutical drug development is extremely lucrative and the current drug prices are not necessarily justified by the R&D spending on these drugs,’’ the researchers who conducted the new analysis — Dr. Vinay Prasad of Oregon Health and Science University and Dr. Sham Mailankody of Memorial Sloan Kettering Cancer Center — wrote in JAMA Internal Medicine.
To arrive at their $648 million estimate, the researchers chose 10 publicly traded drug makers with only one cancer medicine that, at the time of regulatory approval, had no other treatments on the market. They reviewed eligible candidates during a 10-year period beginning in January 2006, some of which were developed internally and others that were acquired.
They calculated total R&D spending from the first R&D work to the year of approval and also accounted for failures — the cost of drugs that never made it to market. In addition, the researchers assigned 7 percent opportunity costs, which is the return that investors could be expected to forgo if the money had been invested elsewhere while a drug is being developed. This raised median costs to $757 million.
“The total revenues from the sales of these 10 drugs after approval were $67 billion, more than 7-fold higher than the total R&D spending,’’ Prasad wrote in an e-mail. “The median time on the market for these drugs was four years. Since the median duration of market exclusivity for oncologic drugs is about 14 years, these drugs will earn billions more. Nine out of 10 companies had higher revenues than R&D spending and four companies had more than 10-fold higher revenues than spending.’’ He also maintained that the cost to develop cancer medicines is unrelated to the novelty of the mechanism of action or the efficacy of the drugs. "
Of course there are dissenters to this study's results as always. Personally I believe any study will have its dissenters. It is not that difficult to find something to disagree with on any topic.
But I digress. Although this number may seem astonishingly low compared to the previously cited $2.6 billion, I still think that the truth is much closer to this latest number of $648 million than to $2.6 billion. This latest study, while under scrutiny is probably a new
Monday, September 11, 2017
Oncology Anxiety
It doesn't matter how many years out it is but a visit to the oncologist always is uncomfortable. Its unsettling. Its alarming. Its distressing. Its ominous. I can't come up with enough words to describe it. And its today.
I had my annual mammogram back in July and then saw my surgeon. Technically, I am supposed to be followed by my breast surgeon for life after treatment ends. But his office was difficult to schedule with so after a few years, I dumped him. I also dumped my rads onc a few years back. She was pretty useless too. She used to tell me things like I should stop working so my husband could support me since I had had cancer. Not good medical advice.
I was originally supposed to see my oncologist after my mammogram but the surgeon took over. I had a momentary cancer freakout last winter and ended up at my surgeon's office. He told me his office would now start following me after my mammograms and had an appointment with his office scheduled for the same day. So my oncologist asked me if I wanted to see her office on a different date - to spread out cancer follow up appropriately.
Anyway, so I get to go see my onc's NP today. I am still on (or back on) femara for another couple of years. So today I am a little unsettled, alarmed, distressed, etc. You never know when you see an oncologist what they might find....
Damn.
I had my annual mammogram back in July and then saw my surgeon. Technically, I am supposed to be followed by my breast surgeon for life after treatment ends. But his office was difficult to schedule with so after a few years, I dumped him. I also dumped my rads onc a few years back. She was pretty useless too. She used to tell me things like I should stop working so my husband could support me since I had had cancer. Not good medical advice.
I was originally supposed to see my oncologist after my mammogram but the surgeon took over. I had a momentary cancer freakout last winter and ended up at my surgeon's office. He told me his office would now start following me after my mammograms and had an appointment with his office scheduled for the same day. So my oncologist asked me if I wanted to see her office on a different date - to spread out cancer follow up appropriately.
Anyway, so I get to go see my onc's NP today. I am still on (or back on) femara for another couple of years. So today I am a little unsettled, alarmed, distressed, etc. You never know when you see an oncologist what they might find....
Damn.
Sunday, September 10, 2017
Living For Now
I am a big supporter for living for now. Sometimes we are so focused in living for the future - saving for retirement, a rainy day, or whatever. We plan our future for ourselves and our family members - education, get a good job, etc. Our culture tells us this. It seems like the biggest reason we have jobs is to save for retirement.
However once you have cancer a time or two, you start questioning this saving for the future business. Why are we doing this if we may not be here to use it? We save up to 10% of our salaries or more.... And cancer? It could take us any time.
When I was diagnosed with breast cancer, it was my second cancer and I really started questioning all this.... Today I read an article about a British news presenter, Victoria Derbyshire, decided to start living for now after her breast cancer diagnosis and treatment. She stopped saving for retirement and got rid of her mortgage protection insurance.
This is another example of how a cancer diagnosis knocks you off your feet. People may wonder why we get so stressed at a cancer diagnosis. Yes it can kill us so we may not want to plan for the future any more because we might not be there for whatever we have saved. So we like to live for now.
However once you have cancer a time or two, you start questioning this saving for the future business. Why are we doing this if we may not be here to use it? We save up to 10% of our salaries or more.... And cancer? It could take us any time.
When I was diagnosed with breast cancer, it was my second cancer and I really started questioning all this.... Today I read an article about a British news presenter, Victoria Derbyshire, decided to start living for now after her breast cancer diagnosis and treatment. She stopped saving for retirement and got rid of her mortgage protection insurance.
This is another example of how a cancer diagnosis knocks you off your feet. People may wonder why we get so stressed at a cancer diagnosis. Yes it can kill us so we may not want to plan for the future any more because we might not be there for whatever we have saved. So we like to live for now.
Friday, September 8, 2017
Wait A Minute, Back Up Please!
A new study shows "How a Chemo Drug Can Help Cancer Spread from the Breast to the Lungs". Really? How does that work? Why are they telling me now instead of before chemo?
"Researchers at The Ohio State University studied the cascade of events that lead to metastatic cancer and found clues to why it happens, opening up the possibility of one day interfering with the medication's downsides while preserving its cancer-fighting properties in breast tissue.
The front-line chemotherapy drug paclitaxel sets off a variety of molecular-level changes that allow breast cancer cells to escape from the tumor. At the same time, it creates an environment in the lung that is more hospitable to the cancer cells, facilitating the spread of the disease, the researchers found in a mouse model of breast cancer."
"She said it's important to recognize that the cancer cells in the study's mouse model are very aggressive and that it would be interesting to test whether paclitaxel also enhances the escape of cancer cells at earlier stages in cancer progression."
"Researchers at The Ohio State University studied the cascade of events that lead to metastatic cancer and found clues to why it happens, opening up the possibility of one day interfering with the medication's downsides while preserving its cancer-fighting properties in breast tissue.
The front-line chemotherapy drug paclitaxel sets off a variety of molecular-level changes that allow breast cancer cells to escape from the tumor. At the same time, it creates an environment in the lung that is more hospitable to the cancer cells, facilitating the spread of the disease, the researchers found in a mouse model of breast cancer."
I know chemo drugs are strong which is why they are used to kill cancer cells. But this is just really bad. Why? Because the 'other name for paclitaxel is Taxol. Which I had. Thanks for that push back on the cancer roller coaster.
And then there is this little disclaimer at the bottom that's supposed to make us feel better.
"She said it's important to recognize that the cancer cells in the study's mouse model are very aggressive and that it would be interesting to test whether paclitaxel also enhances the escape of cancer cells at earlier stages in cancer progression."
Thursday, September 7, 2017
What Does Your Pain Medication Hide?
Last weekend I was a total idiot and forgot to change my pain patch for so long my RA was causing me agony. But I also felt pain in other places that I did not expect. My RA pain was definitely the worst of all.
What this little spurt of idiocy tells me that my pain meds, especially my pain patch, are working and do take care of my pain. This is a very nice thing to know. I am not living in pain (most of the time) because of them.
But then what concerns me is what are my pains caused by. Okay, I am no idiot but I do know that what I felt in my hands and feet is caused by my RA. But then I have pain in other places that I didn't expect. These now need to be explored (not here) but with my doctors to see what causes them - in other words, are they something to worry about.
Pain is your body telling you something is wrong. I just need to know what's wrong and hiding behind my pain medication. Damn.
What this little spurt of idiocy tells me that my pain meds, especially my pain patch, are working and do take care of my pain. This is a very nice thing to know. I am not living in pain (most of the time) because of them.
But then what concerns me is what are my pains caused by. Okay, I am no idiot but I do know that what I felt in my hands and feet is caused by my RA. But then I have pain in other places that I didn't expect. These now need to be explored (not here) but with my doctors to see what causes them - in other words, are they something to worry about.
Pain is your body telling you something is wrong. I just need to know what's wrong and hiding behind my pain medication. Damn.
Monday, September 4, 2017
Breast Cancer Treatment Benefits
Recently it was announced in a draft proposal that the UK's NHS would not cover faslodex to treat estrogen positive metastatic breast cancer. While this may be disappointing to some, at this point I agree with the decision.
The reason given for the decision is:
"While NICE [National Institute for Health and Care] Excellence acknowledged that it can stall tumour growth by up to three months compared to aromatase inhibitors, it said early evidence isn’t strong enough to show that the drug extends survival."
The reason given for the decision is:
"While NICE [National Institute for Health and Care] Excellence acknowledged that it can stall tumour growth by up to three months compared to aromatase inhibitors, it said early evidence isn’t strong enough to show that the drug extends survival."
What is the point of spending millions of dollars on patient medication if it does not extend survival? This is a real problem with many new medications where they are shown to treat an ailment but the question often comes down to the length of extended survival.
If you had metastasized cancer how much money would you pay and side effects would you endure to simply live a few weeks longer? I think we all want to life as long as possible but the costs to be endured can be too high. If you get side effects such as diarrhea where you are forced liquids and electrolytes to keep you alive, is that worth it? Bed ridden in extreme pain? Just because this stupid pill is slowing your tumor growth - and might be keeping you alive longer.
Again, we get to the discussion of quality of life. In my opinion that is one of the most important pieces of medical care. If you are suffering, do you want to be alive? Not me. If you are given so many pain medications that you don't know which way is up because of the other medications you are on, is there quality of life?
I'll be making my own decisions focusing on my quality life thanks.
So I am backing NICE here in this decision to hold off on approval of Faslodex, this fancy new drug that may or may not prolong life.
Sunday, September 3, 2017
Why Did I Feel So Bad?
I have good days and bad days. Little changes, like a poor night's sleep, can cause me problems for a few days. I realize that. Forgetting medication can really mess me up. Last winter I had a horrible cold and forgot to take my Lyrica for a few days. Then I started feeling even worse - the Lyrica hangover.... But then I figured it out and went back on it and felt better instantly.
I have been feeling bad off and on all week but mostly with in reason. Until yesterday. I woke up achy and sore. I didn't sleep well because I couldn't get comfortable. I had a throbbing headache. My hands were really sore on Friday - I couldn't knit because they hurt so much. By 9am yesterday, I decided I was spending the day in bed.
Then I found out my brother, his girlfriend and dog were coming for the weekend so I had to motivate. My brother has a standing invitation to come visit any time with or without kids, dog, girlfriend. Our guest room, a/k/a our finished basement is where people stay with a dog free overflow upstairs in a guestroom and the pull out couch in the livingroom. Before that text message, the basement was a disaster. All my knitting and weaving stuff was everywhere in piles, being sorted, finished, etc. So I had to motivate.
While motivating and cleaning, I realized that all my problems were pain. My pain is primarily controlled by a 7 day pain patch that I change weekly. I realized I had no idea when I had last changed my pain patch which probably means it was more than a week. I never remember what day to change it. I try to change it on the same day I fill our 7 day pill boxes but when I change filling our pill boxes because of some scheduling issue, that screws it up.
And I have no brain. I can't remember anything....
All I know is that I had so much pain yesterday that even after I put my patch on it took several hours to recover. The power of one little pain patch.
What did surprise me is the level of pain that I had.... I definitely need to talk to my doctors about that one.
I have been feeling bad off and on all week but mostly with in reason. Until yesterday. I woke up achy and sore. I didn't sleep well because I couldn't get comfortable. I had a throbbing headache. My hands were really sore on Friday - I couldn't knit because they hurt so much. By 9am yesterday, I decided I was spending the day in bed.
Then I found out my brother, his girlfriend and dog were coming for the weekend so I had to motivate. My brother has a standing invitation to come visit any time with or without kids, dog, girlfriend. Our guest room, a/k/a our finished basement is where people stay with a dog free overflow upstairs in a guestroom and the pull out couch in the livingroom. Before that text message, the basement was a disaster. All my knitting and weaving stuff was everywhere in piles, being sorted, finished, etc. So I had to motivate.
While motivating and cleaning, I realized that all my problems were pain. My pain is primarily controlled by a 7 day pain patch that I change weekly. I realized I had no idea when I had last changed my pain patch which probably means it was more than a week. I never remember what day to change it. I try to change it on the same day I fill our 7 day pill boxes but when I change filling our pill boxes because of some scheduling issue, that screws it up.
And I have no brain. I can't remember anything....
All I know is that I had so much pain yesterday that even after I put my patch on it took several hours to recover. The power of one little pain patch.
What did surprise me is the level of pain that I had.... I definitely need to talk to my doctors about that one.
Saturday, September 2, 2017
I've Been Sliding
The road to hell is paved with good intentions. I have been lazy this summer and taking it easy - in terms of not taking care of myself as much as I should. Why not? Summer time is nice weather. There is no snow and ice to trip me up. I usually feel better during the summer. But just because I feel better doesn't mean I can stop taking care of myself.
With every doctor appointment, there are the reminders to eat healthy, blah, blah, blah. I usually reinforce my intentions.
But I have been sliding, I have been lazy and haven't been taking care of myself. I have been pushing myself too much and not resting enough. I haven't been eating right - wine and candy have been part of my diet. And they should be. Never mind fried clams and french fries. (But they are my favorite and I only eat them in the summer.)
So now that fall is almost here (and the temperature has been in the 40s the past few nights) its time to clean up my act. First of all, I have tons of tomatoes in my garden that I need to eat. I should start eating more of them before the first frost. There are also some green beans out there and more zucchini, cucumbers, and peppers. So lots of veggies just waiting for me.
Second of all, all these sugars (wine and candy) need to stop. I need to stop them and maybe I'll even lose some weight (very helpful). I could stop carbs all together but since I like bread too much).
So I will reinforce my intentions and try to do better. It would be nice to be healthy person and have more leeway in my diet.
Friday, September 1, 2017
An Educational Conversation
I had an interesting conversation. I am doing some research on hospices and palliative care (for someone else, not me). I met with a social worker who used to work for a hospice. She was very helpful.
I had no idea how hospice care worked, especially at home. Basically hospice care includes palliative care. If you have hospice care at home everything comes to you. Doctors, nurses, social workers, and more. It lasts for up to six months. If, at the end of the six months you are still alive, you can be recertified for more hospice time (I think) unless you are too healthy and stable and then its back to reality.
Hospice care is also paid by medicare or medicaid unless you have long term care insurance. So think of it as free care when you are sickest and it all shows up at your house. If you are interested in hospice, its best to start research as soon as possible.
I found it very interesting how the process works. And learned that basically if you have been given less than six months to live, sign right up.
So from what I learned, when I get to that point in life (face it we are all going to get to that point in our lives), I will sign up for hospice.
I had no idea how hospice care worked, especially at home. Basically hospice care includes palliative care. If you have hospice care at home everything comes to you. Doctors, nurses, social workers, and more. It lasts for up to six months. If, at the end of the six months you are still alive, you can be recertified for more hospice time (I think) unless you are too healthy and stable and then its back to reality.
Hospice care is also paid by medicare or medicaid unless you have long term care insurance. So think of it as free care when you are sickest and it all shows up at your house. If you are interested in hospice, its best to start research as soon as possible.
I found it very interesting how the process works. And learned that basically if you have been given less than six months to live, sign right up.
So from what I learned, when I get to that point in life (face it we are all going to get to that point in our lives), I will sign up for hospice.
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