I have finally figured this out. Why do I blog? At first it was to help me cope with my latest cancer diagnosis and communicate the progress to others. Now it is to help me cope with my health, and the disaster that it is.
It has taken me a long time to realize this. Yes you may call me slow. Someone sent me a link to a New York Times article on the terms we use that are associated with cancer treatment. That article made me think. Its title, coming to terms with cancer, also made me think about, not the terminology for cancer, but the phrase 'coming to terms' meaning 'coping'.
So now my thought process is that I blog to cope. I can express myself on the issues surrounding living with cancer and other long term ailments. I am getting really sick of the word 'chronic' because I find it makes me think of the word 'terminal' which is really a bad word. I like the word 'cope' much better.
Blogging means I express myself, my hopes, dreams, frustrations, aches, pains, as well as my doctor appointments, problems, and stupidity. All this helps me cope.
I know where I am is a lonely place in that my health is complicated with two cancers, RA, and fibromyalgia. There are not many others, if any, with the same set of health issues. Because of this, I do what I can to cope and blogging is a big part of it.