I'm trying

I know I can be trying as well (or so I have been told by my loving husband) but I am trying to diet. I was very good and wrote everything down. The scale slightly nudged downward. Then we went on vacation and I decided my diet deserved a vacation as well and stopped writing things down. I have not been able to motivate to write things down again. I have several days where I have written down my healthy breakfast. I have even written down lunch a few days as well. But I haven't made it to write down everything through dinner. The scale is standing still.

I do have the best of intentions. I was told losing weight would be very difficult for me so I don't have any great expectations of losing zillions of pounds. Ideally I would like to like to be able to eat correctly and lose some weight and not have to write everything down for the rest of my life.

I did learn I had some bad eating habits that I wasn't aware of and have since eliminated those from my diet. I am scheduled to go back to the dietitian in a few weeks. I will try to get back on track in the next few days so I can bring in some successful food logs and show her I can do it. But I am not sure I will go back after that. She didn't tell me anything I didn't know. She did refer me to the online tool, SparkPeople.com, that helped me learn what I was doing wrong. But that's it. I think I have to be happy with the size 12 me, instead of the size 8 me that I used to be. Wah!

I guess what I am trying to say is there is no magic bullet to make me lose weight. I am not going to by conventional means (liposuction is not going to happen). I am not someone who can cut down for a bit and drop some weight. Its not going to happen. This is due to the combination of my medical history and my current medications. I can hope to hold my own and slowly go down but that's about it.